cant get used to this!?

hii, this is a rather stange post but something i need to talk about.

ok so for the first time in my life, its actally going well.

im losing weight.
i have a job that i like.

but the problem is i keep picking holes in it, i.e the job, i like it, its what ive wanted to do for years and of course like any job it does have its bad points.
but i keep picking at it, like its sunday, so now im treading going to work tomorrow, for a few small things that dont really matter!

and the losing weight, its amazing,of course it is. yet for some reason i keep thinking ''was i happier fatter'' or ''should i have stayed the way i was''.

i think i because its alot of changes very quickly,witch i have never dealt with very well.

all in all i know i will be happier thinner in the end.

and i do know that this job is a good thing.

but can someone tell my brain that? please?

x